When you look back on the mistakes you made in your life
Of everything that you feel like you got wrong
Everything you wish you could have done differently
You think about the people and the places and the life that you could have had or should have had
The relationships that you fought too long to keep
The people that you may have wasted your time on
The people who you gave up on too easily
The people who you used for certain things when trying to sort your life out when you were trying to find comfort in their arms instead of on your own
You slowly start to heal by understanding what went wrong
By understanding that you’re not perfect
By understanding that maybe it’s okay that certain people weren’t meant to be in your life
You start to forgive everything you had gotten wrong in trying to find someone to spend your life with
In understanding that it’s okay and that maybe life isn’t as easy as people make it seem
You forgive yourself by trusting that you are doing the best you can possibly do
That you are becoming the person you were meant to be
That you are transforming into a person who is going to find the right person to be with whom can love you the way you need
And that no matter how many failed relationships you have, it doesn’t define who you are
It doesn’t mean that you have it all wrong
Slowly you can forgive yourself by admitting what you got wrong
How you were wrong in giving up on those friends you didn’t fight hard enough for
The family you lost touch with
The emotions you buried deep inside
Instead of letting out
You slowly start to forgive yourself by understanding that people come in and out of your life
You forgive yourself for finally understanding that if you want someone in your life you need to put effort into every single relationship you get
You forgive yourself by allowing other people into your life
By forgiving others who hurt you
and by forgiving yourself for the words you spoke or didn’t speak loud enough for them to hear
This is how you forgive yourself for all you got wrong
By forgiving the mistakes you made
And for understanding that maybe everything you got wrong in life was actually meant to bring you to where you need to be
Because nothing you ever do in life is wrong
It is merely a lesson that transforms you into becoming the person you need to be
The person you were meant to be all along.
